Dreaming
-by: Kim Soo Hyun

translated by: infamyss

저 멀리 희미해지는 나의 꿈을 바라보며
I was looking at my dream that is being deemed far away,
멍하니 서있었죠
And I was standing blankly.
더 이상 남은 게 없어
I don't have anything left any more
모두 포기할까 했었지만
I thought about giving up everything, but….
다시 일어나요
I am standing up again.

한 걸음 한 걸음 오늘도
Even today step by step,
조심스럽게 내디뎌요
I step forward carefully
가슴 가득히 두려움과
My heart is full of fears
설레임을 안은 채
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
비틀거리고 흔들려도
I am staggering and shaking
난 또 한 걸음을 내디뎌요
But, I step forward towards…
언젠가 만날 내 꿈을 향해
the dream that I am going to meet some day.

이대로 끝나는 건 아닐지
As I’m thinking if it’s going to end like this,
두려움이 날 자꾸만
A fear constantly comes.
망설이게 하지만
I’m hesitating but….
가슴 속 깊은 곳에서
Deep inside my heart,
멈추지 않는 울림이 날
There’s an unstoppable beating.
앞으로 이끌죠
that drags me forward.

한 걸음 한 걸음 오늘도
Even today step by step,
조심스럽게 내디뎌요
I step forward carefully
가슴 가득히 두려움과
My heart is full of fears
설레임을 안은 채
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
비틀거리고 흔들려도
I am staggering and shaking
난 또 한 걸음을 내디뎌요
But, I step forward towards…
언젠가 만날 내 꿈을 향해
the dream that I am going to meet some day.

한 걸음 한 걸음 오늘도
Even today step by step,
조심스럽게 내디뎌요
I step forward carefully
가슴 가득히 두려움과
My heart is full of fears
설레임을 안은 채
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
비틀거리고 흔들려도
I am staggering and shaking
난 또 한 걸음을 내디뎌요
But, I step forward towards…
언젠가 만날 내 꿈을 향해
the dream that I am going to meet some day.


언젠간 만날 내 꿈을 향해
Towards the dream that I am going to meet some day.

YAY!

BEAST's genesis of beast dvd, shock ver. a & d are finally in my hands!!

the shipments were delayed due to the recent situation in japan. devastating, but i believe Japan will recover from this since Japan is a strong nation. ^^

genesis of beast from hmv japan






SHOCK version A & D from cdjapan



they even taped the albums to the box to prevent them from moving around in it (to avoid damage)




i was damn shocked when i realised the actual shipping cost for HMV doubled the estimated >.<"
i could have saved some money if i had pre-ordered everything from cdjapan + opt  for FEDEX! just, OMG. 
feels cheated.

if i'm getting any japanese versions next time, i'll just go for cdjapan.
very good customer service. friendly as well.

guys, i'm sorry if i sounded harsh/mean these days (if you talked to me). 
i'm getting a little stressed out over projects...
projects projects and more projects. sighs...

i was thinking of calling xinyi and telling her "i hate the world, i hate you". haha, kidding. i dont think she ever reads my blog anyway.

anw i've collected my BEAST AIRLINE photobook ~ as well as my jlpt certificate.

talking about jlpt, i passed n2 (126/180) - thought i'd do better than that, but a pass is still a pass, so yay! -.-". that said, i thought i failed when i first opened the result slip & looked at my score for vocab/grammer section. i barely scraped that section (fyi: minimum sectional passing marks - 19/60).


what modules should i take for my summer program??? - can't decide on my 2nd module.

1. Being, Living, Performing Korea;
2. Korea and World Politics; or
3. Globalisation and Contemporary Culture

Every day I just can’t control
Every night the loneliness my love
(So beast in the cube)

Can't breathe, like freeze 내 몸이 굳어가 (왜! 왜!)
Hey dear, stay here 내 눈이 멀어가 (왜! 왜!)
No way losing my way 넌 왜 멀어지기만 해
아프기 싫어 난 깊어만 간 마음은 어떡하나

今は何も聞こえない どんな光も見えない
Oh 君を失ってから
何も手に付かない 俺

(Cuz I'll be there) 止まって行く 終わって行く
俺さえも消える
(Cuz I'll be there) 目を閉じて 思い出した
君は白く霞む

Every day I shock (shock) Every night I shock (shock)
I'm sorry 君を取り戻したくて
Every day I shock (shock) Every night I shock (shock)
行くなよ　こんなにも　苦しくて oh

Come to me oh oh oh tonight so so crazy
Come back back back to me (I'm waiting for you you)
Oh oh oh tonight so so crazy
気が狂いそうなこのHeart break my shock

Hey ya, wake up 정신차려 보면 너는 곁에 없어
Oh lalalalalala 미친 사람처럼 웃고 있어
그리움이 파도 치는 바다에 매일 허우적대
난 못해 (forget you) 평생 이렇게

こんなにも苦しいなら
君を放さずに居ただろう
Oh もう一度そばに来てよ
叫びは闇へと消える

(Cuz I'll be there) 胸の奥刺さる君　
思い出せば苦しい
(Cuz I'll be there) 立ち竦み 時を止め
まだ前に進めない

Every day I shock (shock) Every night I shock (shock)
I'm sorry 君を取り戻したくて
Every day I shock (shock) Every night I shock (shock)
行くなよ　こんなにも　苦しくて oh

Come to me oh oh oh tonight so so crazy
Come back back back to me (I'm waiting for you you)
Oh oh oh tonight so so crazy
気が狂いそうなこのHeart break my shock

まだ夢で(夢) 君の声(声) 聞こえない(えない) 見えない

俺と 別れ 君が 幸せなら 苦しみに 耐えるよ

Every day I shock (shock) Every night I shock (shock)
I'm sorry 君を取り戻したくて
Every day I shock (shock) Every night I shock (shock)
行くなよ　こんなにも　苦しくて oh

Come to me oh oh oh tonight so so crazy
Come back back back to me (I'm waiting for you you)
Oh oh oh tonight so so crazy (crazy)
気が狂いそうなこのHeart break my shock

This song is not over Get Shock


Credit- BZ and Tachimiyu@beastcn

 i should be working on my marketing communications project now, but i'm feeling so lethargic.

I've received the COOL Light Music magazine from Neo today ^^ 

She offered to send it to me FOC (btw, she gave me the magazine for free as well), so I was surprised when she gave me a tracking number. On top of that, its via EMS... Not cheap~... 

 
taken during my 2009 taiwan trip

wanted to take a picture of the scenery, but someone walked into my picture.
... so i photoshopped her out of the picture. (though i didnt mean to make the plant on the bottom left resemble a chick or something~)


anw. its 3:09am here, i should be sleeping right now, but for some reasons, i'm wide awake. lalala

my online spendings have increased significantly this month. T.T"
BEAST AIRLINE photobook from jeansg2010 - an impulse purchase i guess? the pre-order period was short & i'm a total sucker for photobooks so i bought it without thinking, haha. when my rational mind kicks in, i'm starting to regret. hopefully its worth it.
GMARKET KOREA - i need to get some skirts & blouse for my presentations in march... and a pair of black heels. 
CD JAPAN - BEAST's shock versions A and D
HMV JAPAN - Genesis of BEAST DVD

i was originally considering to purchase just version C of BEAST's shock (japanese), but...you know, things just happen, haha. Ahhh! i need to stop spending money on BEAST's merchandises for a while ...
unless! theyreleasetheirconcertdvdrightaway,etc...

 i was watching oh my school! just now, when my mum came and sat beside me.


mum: are they aware that they are being filmed?
me: ??? huh? 
mum: wont their fans bash them? saying things like that on tv??
me: ................................ they are not holding a phone.............




awkward silence....

The ballad track, from BEAST's 3rd album was released this morning.
As much as I hope they're able to rest more, I'm really looking forward to their comeback!





주먹을 꽉 쥐고

[Kikwang] I told you to go, to go away
I replied back to you that I didn’t like you because I thought I wasn’t going to see you again

[Dongwoon]I wanted to embrace you with my two arms, but I couldn’t do that
Because I thought I was going to cry first

[Hyunseung] We can live apart
There is a farewell for us too
Only the fake laugh is coming out

[Doojoon] I will send you away
So hurry up and go to be happy
Clenching my fists tight, I started to cry

[Yoseob] We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that

[Junhyung] After that, the dreams of me finding you repeats again
Just staring into your back, you don’t smile back looking at me
I happily greet you even though there is no response from you
I do this so that I won’t end up regretting after I wake up from this dream
It isn’t easy to fill up a blank space
The memories just shine a light to where you are
Words that I don’t even mean anything, I send them to you
Clenching my fists tight, Good luck to you

[Kikwang] I didn’t know it was this hard walking back home
My heart is too stuffed up

[Doojoon] I need to live better
I need to fight this off
No matter how much I tell myself
It is so hard because thoughts of you roam in my mind

[Yoseob] We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that

[Hyunseung] Even though I tell myself that I will forget a girl like you
Even though I tell myself that I will never look at a girl like you
But again I can’t forget you

[Yoseob] We loved each other, we really loved each other
Why are we breaking up like this?
(Let’s not break up)
Telling me that you couldn’t live without me,
Telling me that you were going to die without me
You, who used to say such things,
Where did you go? Where did you go?

CREDITS: aoistars @ B2STRISING.COM (ENG)

1st time fangirling to such an extent -.-"

i'm super pissed off with the management. LONG STORY.
but anw. due to bad management, i've made some interesting new friends. so i guess its not so bad?

one of the most epic conversation...

sarah: who are your other favourite kpop groups other than BEAST?
me: oh, shinhwa!
sarah: they havent been active for a long time right? arent they dead?
me: *SHOCKED (everyone else who heard that gave the same expression)* THEY'RE NOT! =____________=ll

...

anw. back to the hi-5 session. before BEAST reached the venue, there was this charity auction whereby someone went off with BEAST's autographed tshirt & poster bundle - at SGD 390. incredibly insane! the person will probably 錘心肝 like mad when he/she is out of BEAST one day (i'm saying, IF).

the 6 members of BEAST look really awesome!! SHOCK performance was terrific! (although i could barely see it... i was really trying hard to watch through the gaps)

i shock hands with gikwang, and just hi-5-ed with the others. junhyung looked tired (or probably, SHY?!), cos' he barely smiled. and i was too eagerly trying to hi-5 junhyung to point of almost lying flat on the table. i bent too much, LOL. his hand is sooooo soft, not kidding!!!
i bet that move was extremely weird, cos doojoon (who was beside junhyung)sorta gave me this "are you ok?" look. sighs.

its pretty fun. i'll probably not attend any other freeseating/freestanding events though.
so. come to singapore for a concert instead please?



GET SHOCK!